Silva Zanoyan Merjanian – Darker

Merjanian LE P&W 5 Nov-Dec 2023

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14th Anniversary Edition, Live Encounters Poetry & Writing Volume Five Nov-Dec 2023.

Darker, poem by Silva Zanoyan Merjanian


If thine is the glory, then mine must be the shame
Leonard Cohen
I thought I’d change the way you see
this night through its scars
past the thick skin and the white bone
to the vein that bleeds but wants to live
writing itself on the thick crust
hardened on time
on the silence blue in my throat
on the encrypted and deciphered past
it wraps itself around pine trees
cradling an imagined breeze
and like the Jasmine on the trellis
that rises to kiss the humid air
and falls in disgrace without its scent
it lost its way
a night like this
chaffed on entitlement and greed
chisels memories on the moonlight playing
on the walls
I can’t remember the laughter flapping
on our windows
but the distorted panic of awake nightmares foams in my mouth
like the ocean’s infected flotsam
washing blame on shores

this night picks at life’s oldest scabs

I remember it darker
Cohen tangled in white curtains
can’t silence regret’s howl in gutters of shame

stillness of the stars judges memory’s backwash callused on my tongue
my pen pierces a mother’s wail
and I remember how to sigh without an exhale

If mine is the asphalt catching scream of roadkill in a poem
yours are the corpses of prayers cast by the side of highways

our violence a credulous bystander to shame lost in cobwebs of freedom

we scrub the sky clean of dark clouds
knowing it’ll stain the rooftops with every raindrop
somewhere mothers glaze their children’s handprints on the soil we hope to turn
but never dare
A night like this can turn around
walk away with the limp of an old man
darker in my memory as it gets closer to the morning light
darker as I wake it up in my bloodshot eyes

© Silva Zanoyan Merjanian

Silva Zanoyan Merjanian is an Armenian American poet. Her work is featured international poetry journals.  Merjanian has two volumes of poetry, Uncoil a Night (2013) and Rumor (Cold River Press, 2015.) Rumor won the Pinnacle Book Achievement Award Fall 2015 for best poetry book by NABE, she has 3 poems from Rumor nominated for Pushcart Prize.

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